This is my very 1st post in my new “Lifestyle” section of my blog. I LOVE writing about books, but I also enjoy writing in general. I decided to expand my blog a little and I am so excited about it! I will be posting my thoughts & anything else that comes across my mind that I think is important enough to write about.
Sometimes I like to just browse Pinterest and read quotes. I found this quote and it really hit me. I struggle a lot with Anxiety & Depression. I’ve not had the worst life, but I also haven’t had the best. I have let myself get into situations that weren’t good for my heart and soul. I’ve allowed myself to stay in bad relationships until the point I couldn’t take it anymore and I’ve let men walk all over me.
There has been one man in particular that has hurt me more than all of them combined. He hasn’t been abusive to me or ever even raised his voice around me, but he has emotionally drained me. We’ve known each other for about 8 years and we have been in and out of each other’s lives several times. He makes me feel like he wants more with me, but when things start to get a little more serious, he literally ghosts on me. I may not hear from him again for a month or two after that.
Each time he does this, it hurts. He knows what I want and he keeps coming back, but he can’t commit to anything. This has happened to me again recently. He is in my life for about a month and when I get tired of him not being able to act like he cares about me, he’s gone. It’s been going on for too long. I am finally at the point where I know I can’t keep putting myself through this. I have to learn how to let him go for good.
I was laying in bed last night and started thinking about all of the bad relationships I’ve been in. I’ll admit that I got a little teary-eyed from the memories. I thought about him and I thought about the other few men I’ve been in a long-term relationship with. Reading this quote woke something up in me. I realize that I cannot keep holding on to the past and holding onto hope that he will finally decide to commit to me and love me.
Forgetting him and anyone else that has hurt me will be a hard journey, but one I know I have to take. Life is too short to dwell on the past and to let those memories hurt you. It’s also too short to keep letting people back in your life that don’t make you a priority.